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  Was he making some sort of weird joke? “I don’t understand.”

  He took a few deep breaths. “Okay. If I tell you the truth, you’re going to need to listen, then quickly walk away in the opposite direction. Do you understand?”

  “If that’s really what you want, sure.” I could feel myself pouting. There was nothing I could seem to do to make him act rationally. His energy was all twitchy and strange. Much different from the steadfast calm of just a few days ago.

  He closed his eyes and became very still. “Kayla, I’ve been a big guy my entire life, then even more when I found out the gym makes me feel amazing. But people expect me to act like a caveman. I counter this by trying to be civilized and polite at all times. Yet when I saw your eyes, I needed to tear your clothes off and take you right there. I don’t mean that I wanted to. I’m sure most men would like to. You’re breathtaking. But I mean need. real, raw need. It was physically hard to keep my hands off you.”

  “You can’t be serious,” I whispered.

  Liam refused to open his eyes. “All I dream about is your soft, curvy body under mine. Those eyes looking up at me as I slide inside you. I can’t stop thinking about making you mine, and keeping you with me forever.” He swallowed hard. “You likely have plans for your life that don’t involve someone like me as your boyfriend, life partner, whatever. So if you want to continue having your nice life, you need to walk away right now. Please.”

  I couldn’t believe what he was saying. He was everything I’d ever wanted. “What if I don’t want that? What if I want you?”

  His lips pressed together hard. “Kayla, don’t tease me. I know you can’t possibly have feelings like this for me, so you need to move on. I’ll try to forget where you live. I’ll try to forget you.”

  I could feel the frustration, the stress radiating from him. He was trying so hard to do the right thing for me. But I knew in my heart that the best thing for me was him.

  “Walk away,” he said, his eyes still closed. “Please take good care of yourself, Kayla.”

  “No.”

  His frustration looked painful, his hands clenched in his lap. “Please don’t make this even harder for me.”

  “No. I don’t want to take care of myself. I like the way you take care of me. And I want to take care of you. I think we’re going to be an amazing team.”

  He froze, almost shaking.

  “Liam, I’ve been stared at all my life!” I burst out, trying not to yell in frustration. “People thought the wonky-eyed girl was crazy, or some sort of mentally different, or I don’t even know what else. Nobody ever thought that I was normal. You’re likely the only other person who knows what this feels like. You understand me, and I feel… a lot of new things around you.”

  Liam exhaled a shaky breath. “Kayla, remember how I was sweet with you, and gentle with you?”

  “Yes,” I said softly.

  “I honestly don’t know if I can be gentle with you where you really need me to be. Please leave.”

  I paused. I knew that I needed him. I knew that he’d never really hurt me. But here he was begging me to run because he couldn’t control his urges around me?

  That was the hottest thing I’d ever heard.

  All of my life I’d had wild fantasies of a beast of a man taking me hard. The sort of fantasies that one is ashamed of in the light of day. But if the beast were actually a sweet guy who was in love with me... I knew he was. I knew that pushing me away was hurting him. And I couldn’t stand it any more.

  I stood up, and he relaxed a bit, likely thinking that I was leaving. Instead, I straddled him, sitting on his lap quickly and winding my arms around his neck.

  My lips brushed his and I felt his immediate response pressing between my legs. His big hands gripped my ass, moving me against him as he kissed me hard and deep.

  A shudder ran through him, then his eyes opened, staring into mine. He ground against me roughly, as a near growl rumbled through him. “I’ve never needed to fuck someone in public before. So take me to your place right now, or this is happening.”

  Liam’s voice was razor blades and gravel. His breath was raspy. He was so intense that my insides were quivering, and I could feel my body becoming more aroused than I’d ever been in my life. My nipples were tight and my thighs were twitching. My breath felt unsteady as I fully realized what was about to happen.

  Standing up, I took his hand and we began quickly walking to my place.

  CHAPTER EIGHTEEN

  * Liam *

  The few blocks to Kayla’s apartment was the longest walk of my life, even though it only took a few minutes. In the elevator, I pulled her against me, grabbing her ass hard. “I’m telling you one more time that this is wrong.”

  “And I’m telling you one more time that if we both want something, it’s right.”

  She pulled me into her apartment, locking the door behind us and kicking off her shoes. I followed suit, then stared at her, frozen.

  Her quirky grin relaxed me slightly as she took my hand, heading straight to the bedroom. She spun toward me, then gripped the bottom of my t-shirt. Pulling it up slowly, she trailed her fingers along every muscle as she yanked it over my head in slow motion.

  “Good grief,” she muttered, then I felt the softness of her lips and fingertips skimming across my chest.

  My hands were already unzipping her dress, caressing her perfect skin. Kayla stepped back so that I could pull her dress off. As I saw her standing before me in her soft pink bra and panties, my body forgot how to breathe.

  Reaching out to her, both of us trembling, I grabbed her hot round ass and the back of her shoulders. Pulling her lips to mine, we began to devour each other. I knew in time our kisses would be delicate and sweet, but we were so riled up that our heat and impatience couldn’t be contained.

  Her hands fell to my waist, unbuttoning my jeans and pulling them down my hips. Then she pulled off my shorts. I moaned as her little fingers followed the line of my shaft as it stood at attention for her. Her soft whimper against my lips made me grind against her roughly.

  Picking her up and tossing her on the bed, I practically tore off her panties, then began kissing from her knee, slowly along her inner thigh.

  “Stop.”

  My head jerked up, staring wildly at her.

  She sat up, flashing me the saucy a little grin as she unhooked her bra and threw it across the room.

  “Lie on your back,” she ordered.

  I reached out to stroke her glorious breasts for a moment. Then I obeyed, lying back as my entire body vibrated from the need to take her immediately.

  “Listen,” she said softly, “I know you’re all jittery, and I’ve never done this before, but let me take the edge off for you first, okay?”

  She kissed me slowly, a butterfly soft caress of her lips against mine, and I could feel her smiling. “You took care of me for a whole week,” she said. “Let me take care of you, Liam.”

  Her lips began to trace a line of kisses down my throat, down my chest, and across my stomach to meet her hand as it carefully stroked my twitching cock.

  I yanked a pillow under my head, wanting to watch.

  She looked up at me with a wink. Then she reached out with her tongue, twirling little circles around the head of my shaft. Watching her pretty face as she wrapped her lips around me, I shuddered.

  I must have released a few drops of pre-come, as she lapped and swallowed, looking up at me with a giggle. “It’s salty,” she laughed.

  Every muscle was tensed. My breathing was ragged. “Kayla, have you honestly never done this before?”

  She shook her head slowly, seductively. Then she placed her tongue against the base of my cock, licking all the way up to the tip, her eyes locked with mine. My length twitched hard, and I realized I was already far too close.

  She wrapped both hands around me, stroking along the length as she brought her mouth around the thick head, sucking gently. Moving cautiously, she skimmed her li
ps along my flesh, working over half of my length into her mouth and throat.

  Her slow, steady rhythm as she began to bob felt incredible. But watching her flashing, saucy eyes while she did it was the sexiest thing of all.

  She must have felt my shaft begin to twitch, as she pulled it from her mouth to say, “Liam, I want you to be the first man to come down my throat. Would you like that?”

  My mouth fell open as I nodded, almost panting with desire. She grinned, her perfect little nose twitching as she began stroking and sucking harder, faster. She seemed to genuinely enjoy the process, and having me under her power.

  I needed to grip the back of her head and fuck her hot, soft mouth, but instead I brought my hands to her shoulders, stroking her skin gently. I was shocked that I was able to control myself at the moment.

  My heart was hammering in my chest, my entire nervous system on edge as I realized I was past the point of no return.

  Just as my cock began throbbing in her mouth, Kayla gave a little, “Mmm,” moan. My hand slid to the back of her head, helping her speed up, trying not to be rough but starting to lose my mind. Then I exploded, drenching her throat with my hot load as I came hard in long, drawn out bursts. Her eyes flew wide, grinning as she swallowed over and over.

  Then she licked the head clean, finishing by running her tongue around her lips. “How was that for a first try?” she asked teasingly.

  Grabbing under her arms, I yanked her on top of me, kissing her tantalizing full lips with everything I had. It felt like her entire body was stirring, shifting, as she spread her legs and arranged herself over me.

  “Come here,” I growled, grabbing her ass and pulling her into position until she was straddling my face. “Oh fuck, yes,” I moaned, gripping her hips to bring her luscious pussy to my mouth.

  She gasped as I covered her skin in open-mouthed kisses, brushing my lips against every bit of her delicate skin. Lapping at every fold, I felt her honey flowing, plunging my tongue into her entrance to suck down every drop I could reach. She squirmed, a clenched squeal ringing through the room.

  “Grab the headboard,” I commanded. “Don’t fall. I need to feel you come on my tongue.”

  “Yes,” she breathed, and I arched back to watch her grip the bed frame, her eyes closed as her hips swayed.

  It was my ultimate vision come to life. The woman of my dreams allowing me to worship her, please her, as the creature of absolute perfection that she was.

  There aren’t many times in your life when you’re completely aware that you’re making a memory that you will treasure forever. This was one of those moments.

  Looking up to see Kayla’s breasts swaying over me, her thighs clenched by my ears, her arms trembling as she moved. It was all perfect bliss. I needed to eat her sweet pussy every day for the rest of my life and I would do absolutely anything to stay in her good graces so that she’d let me.

  Running my hands up her inner thighs, she moaned as I caressed her soft skin. I reached up to lightly fondle her perky round breasts as I brushed against her pussy lips with my other hand. Tracing her skin with my fingertips, I stroked her clit firmly with my tongue until her moans grew louder.

  When I slipped a finger inside her, Kayla shivered from head to toe, her thighs trembling on either side of my head.

  “You like that?” I murmured.

  “Yeah,” she sighed. Her hips began slowly rocking back and forth, rubbing her hot little pussy against my mouth.

  After lightly pinching her nipples, making her moan louder, I slid that hand to her hip, pulling her against me harder. Gliding two fingers into her drenched tunnel, her breath was coming in sharp little gasps.

  Working my tongue faster, harder, I looked up to see Kayla staring at me with wide eyes. “Liam,” she choked. Then her mouth fell open as her entire body fluttered, clenching around my fingers and flushing with heat. Having her stare into my eyes as she lost herself was a gift I would cherish forever.

  When she stopped shaking, she crawled backward, lying beside me. Those magical eyes looked up at me. Holding her in my arms while she still twitched and panted, I realized that my absolute lust for her was eclipsed by one thing.

  Cupping her exquisite face in my hand, I held her gaze. “Kayla, I love you.”

  She blinked. It felt like her breath stopped for a heartbeat. “I love you too,” she whispered.

  I rolled her shoulders toward me, kissing her soft lips while she slipped her hands behind my neck. Feeling her grip the back of my hair channeled every animal urge I’d ever had, and she must have felt my arms clench around her.

  Then she nibbled my bottom lip lightly before pulling away to stare into my eyes for a moment before whispering the most incredible thing I’d ever heard. “I’m ready.”

  CHAPTER NINETEEN

  * Kayla *

  When Liam was devouring my pussy like a starving man, I had felt like some sort of exotic treasure. It was as if he was worshiping every inch of my skin. I’d never felt so powerful, so adored.

  Now I was ready for the opposite. I wanted him to control me. To take me.

  He rolled us so that I was on my back, under his huge frame. The fire in his eyes was wild, but I trusted him. Then I realized that just in case he really was a tiny bit out of control, I should warn him of something rather important. Even if it was embarrassing.

  “Um, there are two things I should likely tell you,” I said softly.

  Liam paused, a bit less jumpy now that he’d had one release, but his shaft was hard as steel again, pressing against my hip bone. I knew it was just the beginning. “Go ahead,” he nodded, nuzzling my neck.

  “I’ve been on the pill for a while, to straighten out my cycle.”

  He breathed a sigh of relief. “Good. I hate condoms, they’re too tight. And I need to feel you. What’s the other thing?”

  “I’ve never... um. Well, I’ve never needed the pill for any other reason before.”

  Liam’s eyes darkened, as his breath stopped for a second. Then he leaned back to stare at me. “Kayla, are you saying that you want me to be your first?”

  I nodded.

  His eyes closed, and his aggressive heat mellowed out a little. “Are you sure, baby?”

  “Yes. I need you. I trust you.” My voice may have sounded like a nervous squeak, but I nodded emphatically.

  His soft smile was so precious. “Little one, I’m going to try to be gentle.”

  “I can take it.”

  He grinned. “You’re a tough cookie, I’m learning. But if this hurts a bit, I’m so sorry.”

  I nodded, pulling him against me. “Don’t make me wait any longer.” With his hot body pressed to mine, I was nearly going crazy from anticipation. It felt like his naked skin was everywhere, as my hands wandered restlessly along the back of his shoulders.

  I felt the warmth of his cock pressing against my wetness. He slid inside me so slowly it felt like he was teasing me.

  “Baby, you’re so wet. I wish you could feel what that does to me.”

  “Show me,” I gasped, looking up into his deep, soulful eyes.

  His gaze locked with mine as he entered me, the steady pressure strange, and so oddly intense.

  When I gasped again, he stopped. “Too much?” he whispered, nuzzling my ear as he pulled back a little.

  “It’s so good… just…”

  Liam began taking the smallest gentle strokes inside me as I wrapped my legs around his waist. “You’re so tight, little one.” His lips hovered at my ear as he murmured, “You feel so perfect around me, Kayla. I’ve never imagined anything could feel this right.”

  His hot breath and sweet words tweaked something deep in my core, and I felt my insides opening as my juices flowed even more.

  “Oh fuck,” he growled, sinking deeper.

  The energy surrounding him was so fierce, so passionate. I felt my body giving itself to him completely.

  “Yes,” I moaned, my fingers digging into his skin. “Fuck me.”
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  I don’t think I’d cursed in front of him before, and his eyes darkened, nearly feral with lust. I felt his hips tense as he began to drive into me deeper, faster. One of his hands scooped under my ass, tilting me so that the base of his thick cock was brushing against my clit with every stroke. His strong grip was aggressive. Possessive. And I loved it.

  “Kayla, my sweet baby,” he groaned, his voice husky. “You’re making me insane.”

  “Oh!” I shrieked as something shifted, my tight tunnel opening for him completely as he plunged all the way inside. “Liam… yes…”

  He kissed me roughly, but it still felt like he was holding back. His teeth nipped lightly along my throat as thrusts sped up, nearly frantic. Then his lips crushed to mine, matching the movement of his powerful hips. “Is this okay, baby?” he moaned into my mouth. His savage energy was nearly knocking the wind from me, and I loved every stroke.

  “Don’t stop,” I breathed. “I’m going to…”

  “Oh fuck, yes, baby.” His eyes locked on mine as he kissed me frantically with his eyes open. “Come for me. Let me feel you, Kayla.”

  His energy had always been comforting. This severe version of his caring was incredible. My pulse quickened as his deep strokes became even more frantic.

  Every muscle tensed and I gripped his shoulders desperately. “Liam,” I shrieked, my head falling back as I shook, coming so hard I thought I was being torn apart.

  The way he held me just a little too tightly, pounded into me a bit too hard – everything was too much and it was perfect. My entire body was one screaming live wire of purest sensation. His heat flooded me, the sound of my name being roared from his lips made me dizzy with joy.

  When our movements finally stopped, his lips met my forehead, my cheekbones, my lips. “Baby,” he whispered, “My sweet baby, please tell me I wasn’t too rough.”

  “Just right,” I breathed, kissing him softly as he rolled to lie beside me. As we held each other, skin to skin, I realized that I’d never be this close to anyone else. Ever.